Monday, May 30, 2005

Time by time I was destroyed
Cause nothing is nice in this world
From place to place I was gone
But without you I can't go on
Days were passing and cheers were falling
While tears were down and a lot of raining
So say Goodbye but don't say I'm alive
Cause it's not so important to survive
Now many dreams flew away
And something had to stop me in the mid way
That a big storm came and took me into insane
Just being lost together even without a brain
Meeting a lot of people who took me far and far away
To a world that leaves all the love in a cold weir
Doing bad things that I personally admire
Without understanding their real recover
Believing that one mistake will follow the other in a raw
5that no one can return her as it was seen before
Searching for someone to take me up from hell
But my dignity refuses to ask for help
I can't say to anyone that I'm wrong
And hiding them in my heart will make a sad song
Crying and crying for so many nights silently
Where the moon was the witness but keeping it secretly
Passing in bad times is what I'm going on
And all I need is just a friend to relay on
The world is turning and my heart is burning
Just being alone without a shoulder for crying
Talking to no one but listening for everyone
Wishing for someone to be with me all the time without anyone
No solution I can find and that is my crime
And walking as they want is my only fate prime

Wednesday, March 25, 1998

Life to me is a black flower with no smell
And earth is a piece of shit that we are thrill
Living day by day searching for the stars
That I' having instead of them group of monsters
Walking in the desert with hot sand
Feeling disgusting from any human being band
I'm a stranger and always doing wrong
Cause rude is my melody and loneliness is my song
Living in noise without knowing the source
And following any tune that can impress and force
Not believing in any kind of truth or right
Nothing can save us or show where's the bright
Everyone is caring only for his mad sake
And saying only dam it we are going to sink
Waiting for the whisper and the real sign
That I can fly freely and see the true heaven
All say tomorrow is better than our dirty present
But all I can say we are dying and that's pleasure
Knocking on heaven's door and saying save us
But even heaven is not responding for our curses
Nothing matters after what we have been through
Bleeding black blood and forgetting any true
Desires our aim and having a wild passion
That can hold the knife and bring us pain
Now the flower is fading up and shrinking
Even if it's small in age but I'm not dreaming
If believing nothing can fear or destroy us
Then we are the kings of the world with a mess
No more begging or having any kind of chains
That nothing can stand in front of me and have a brain
Having all what can make us forget or fly spiritually
And forgetting all the fucking people perfectly
Live with great adventures and don't really care
Cause destiny is following us if we're strong or fear
So try all what you like and be satisfied
Cause death is waiting what ever it cost or fade

Thursday, January 01, 1998

Walking alone in a long road with many holes
Waiting for a match of fire to light my soul
I met so many people just to have fun and to fill my time
But one of them had took all my time and understanding rhyme
Days passed and I was getting close more and more
That many times I've sacrificed in my dignity to ignore
What we made and the moment we spent will never be valued
Cause you've took a large space in my heart to be immortalize
Till a day came and we were separate and nothing in our hand
But I didn't expect to forget me easily with no demand
At that time I was confused and totally lost
After loosing the one I need and the one I love most
Then I've decided not to love anymore even at small rate
But there was nothing in my hand for some one to get used at
Listening the same voice daily and filling my big gap
You've caused after leaving as if you've lost my house map
Three months passed without knowing to where I'm going
Or think to what limit I'm getting deeply without stopping
My love is decreasing for the one I have put on the top
And someone was trying to take your place with no stop
Then I've decided to select the right road and be free
Where I was depending on my self with no snear
And from that time my tears are my friend at night
Where I was missing to a limit for anything to fight
Leaving all the words in my heart and not expressing
For reason I was ashamed from what I was doing
Many difficult moments I was spending only for remembrance
And for being awake every night to taste the sufferance
Then I don't know how and I don't know when
I've regained my power and myself I've determine
And all that after regaining the trust in someone's eyes
Even after falling from a stage beside the sky
Sharing my decision with someone I'm not totally confessing
What I feel inside and to myself I'm really lying
But the right I've made and to forget was my aim
With the help of my friend I've wined the game
I was filling the time with anything not to think
But when I sleep there's no chase from getting deeply sink
Feeling in regret is something easy to say
Where my confidence is vanishing day by day
Now the time had come and I'm in real isolation
Cause I am not so strong to get up only one solution
Believe or not I don't know where I am standing
And I don't know what I want or what I'm feeling
All that because loneliness is deeply increasing
I'm in need for someone who's far and near
That I can talk freely and show my real tears
By time all my sweet days are running away
And staying alone with no hand is my situation today
Days we spent were more than hours passing
Leaving everyone and maybe that's right only for surviving
I'll be broken heart and totally different from many side
And that will leave a tragedy and impress on my nights
Being so fool for falling easily and going so far away
In things no one understand what I see or say
Many advices I was given not to give a little from my love
Cause that will bring me pain and distress with no move
But nothing is in my hands for things I can't do
And feeling in a big guilty with no crime too
Maybe the days will prove our love or let us forget
That what we've passing through is a regret
Now do you believe that my flowers are fade up
Only for your leaving me with no sign in the sky up
I can reach all the stars that are so high
But I can't reach you when your heart is far
Every night and everyday I'm searching for my way
Then realizing that my life is in your hands only today
But I do cry and cry and I don't know why and that will be forever
Maybe cause I'm praying night and day to be always together
But what I have is my dreams to feel in security
And if I do trust the dreams cause for in them is hidden the gate of eternity